Namasthe, my name is Anna. I am from Mexico. I am doing the Deepening course here at the Oneness University. For a long time I have been struggling with my mind, fighting with it all the time. When I came here I thought that, that would go away. But, what happened actually is that, this fight I have with my mind went even worse. We were fighting and struggling and I was in pai
n because of that. It just wouldn't go away
But, on the fourth week of the deepening, I had this huge realization. My divine allowed me to realize that I was here not to achieve anything. That is what my mind has been telling me. You know, my mind has been telling me, 'Anna!! You should be awakened and god realized by the end of the 28 days and by the fourth week, I was really frustrated because I couldn’t do, I was not just able to.
So this realization came to me that I was here not to achieve but to see - to be aware. So, I realized this and I relaxed completely. And my mind and my 'self', it was there with me and I was with it. We were ok together. I was able to really enjoy the day.
But, the next day after I got this realization, this realization became an experience to me. They took us to the forest (namely Sidharanya). It is a very nice place that you love and I was lying in SHAVASAN. just enjoying. You know the place and the plants and the nature and my mind was with me, but It was ok. You know I was enjoying and my mind was blab, blab, blab. It was ok with me and then for a moment everything stopped.
My mind stopped, right in the middle of the thought and I was like - what? I even made the effort to reset the thought or the mind but I could not and in a moment just my body like -sunk in -I was like (that) and this amazing energy just came to me into my body and all through my body. It went on for a while and it was a wonderful gift my lord Bhagavan gave to me because He made me realize what is
to see, to just witness. That has been my experience here.
Thank you.
God bless :)
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